HOOLIGANtastic

Man Up and Lie

2009-06-22T22:43:00.000-07:00

MAN UP AND LIE

She gave me ten days to say goodbye
to man up and try
It's just that it gets so hard
because I know you are
So perfect for me and I still believe
but you've got to leave

{Chorus}
I wanna say I love you
But i'm gunna say goodbye
I'll say I don't love you
Even if it's a lie
I wanna say I'll be with you
And I'll hold you your last nights
I wanna tell you how i feel
but I've got to man up and lie

She told me fate will only get you so far
So grab your keys and get in the car
You could sit at home and let it be fate
Or drive to me on the interstate
Come on before it's too late
I don't know how long I can wait
I swear if you love me it won't be hard

{Chorus}

I drive on the high way
Going 95
I catch her on airplane
Just in time
I kiss her like I mean it
Before I say goodbye
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye

{Chorus}

Goodbye, Goodbye, I lied.

ya

2009-05-17T20:20:00.000-07:00

In July

2009-05-08T22:47:00.000-07:00

IN JULY

In July I go outside and there is the sun
And I lied when I said "I love you" I've never loved anyone
And I cried, but when I was done I was as empty as when I begun

God strike me down on my path
Let me know of your wrath
This is all that I ask
Let me feel your wrath
So I may not stray from my path

In July I'm finally alive
I'm finally a spectacle beheld
With her eyes on the horizon
She says what she felt

In the nights we go
We become our own
We intertwine in the meadows
We go on our own in meadows
As silent as those
Who sneak past their foes
We go, we go, we go

God strike me down on my path
Let me know of your wrath
This is all that I ask
Let me feel your wrath
So I may not stray from my path

We are innocent and naked in the water
We are buoyant with the beliefs of our fathers
We can do no wrong by them
We are as precious as gems
In the water

In the fall I denounce my love and claim it for a fraud
On my path I've lost my way and now cannot stand my God
I shall not make you an idol or at your feet shall I laud
As believers stomp their feet and at your deeds they applaud
I shall be punished by the deacons who will whip me with rods
God strike me down, strike me down! Now! Strike me down! Now!

In July I go outside and there is the sun
And I lied when I said "I love you" I've never loved anyone
And I cried, but when I was done I was as empty as when I begun

I've never loved anyone but I may be loved in your eyes
I've never had a decent thing to say but there is July
I've found myself in July
I've lied and cried and a scoundrel am I, but I can fly
I can fly in July with the sun outside
And I am finally alive
And I am finally alive

Rockin Releases So Far

2009-03-22T14:08:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I've gotten some of the bands on my this year's going to rock list. I have This Providence, The Decemberists, New Found Glory, and A Day to Remember's releases. Below I will evaluate their awesomeness in order of which ones I like best.

1.The Decemberists-The Hazards of Love

The first time I listened to this I was nonplussed by it. I've been a Decemberists fan for about 4 years now and this seemed a disappointing release with a few good moments here and there. I decided to give it another listen because I thought I'd warm up to it. And boy did I. The songs are like puzzle pieces in the winding story that unfolds. While some pieces may be beautiful all on their own, It is best seen when they all slide aimlessly together forming a masterpiece. Following the harder rock trend of The Crane Wife album The Hazards of Love comes across as a Folk/Metal/Rock Opera mash up that is amazingly not as awkward as it sounds. It's my first 'gotta have on vinyl release of 2009. (I hope they release it on vinyl! *crosses fingers*

2.A Day to Remember-Homesick

I can't believe I thought that this band was screamo back when they released For Those Who Have Heart. Honestly on this release I'm now leaning towards pop punk, but it's hard to call it that with such a thundering bass and the bite of McKinnon's throaty growl. It certainly has pop punk sensibility though, complete with hand claps, group vocals, and massive hooks. On the other end of the spectrum it hits pretty hard and there are some pretty fricken sweet breakdowns included. I was sold from the first group vocals that opened the first track mimicking the heavy guitars that follow immediately after a cry of "Let's Go!". I knew right there I was going to like this album a helluva lot. And it's in no way a letdown even in it's (cringe!) ballads.

3.New Found Glory-Not Without a Fight

All pop punk bands better stop slouching and bring their A-Game, because New Found Glory (the self-proclaimed Kings of Pop Punk) have returned to the scene. They're not breaking into dance music or wearing neon either, and Pundik isn't relying on Auto Tune to make his lyrics stick. This is an NFG album. If you have ever liked them in the past, you're going to like this album. If that's all you needed to hear than feel free to stop reading. So the last album released (Coming Home) was softer to say the least than it's predecessors. It was still an amazing release and rivals for one of my favorite albums by NFG. If you thought they'd grown out of their genre and were post-pop punk, this album was their memo to you that you were dead wrong. They bring all of their talent to the table releasing some of their catchiest music yet. Don't Let Her Pull You Down is an anthem and a half, while Truck Stop Blues had me singing the chorus the second time I heard it. The only fault of the record is it is too much the same. All the NFG tactics are there, but they don't stray away from the formula much. It's ends up being a great album, just not the most memorable in their already stacked catalogue.

This Providence-Who Are You Now?

I'll start this one off negatively, just for kicks. Why would you ever redo My Beautiful Rescue? It was perfect the way it was. It didn't need to be transformed into some dance pop song. Alright, griping over. This album is definitely worth a listen, especially if you've never heard this band before. While nothing is as snarky as A Wolf In Sheep's Clothing was on their self titled release, it certainly does have it's glory filled moments. My favorite of which is That Girl's A Trick. I can't get enough of this song and it's the first one I go to if I want to be selective. The album seems to have a different feel than the last. I don't know where the Christian undertones went (maybe I'm just not reading enough into the lyrics), and they've gone more for a pop/rock approach rather than their Fueled By Ramen emo style. It sounds a lot like Santi era The Academy Is... did. Which isn't bad to say the least, but I was hoping for a step up from their self titled rather than a step sideways.

This Year is Going To Rock!

2009-02-24T16:27:00.001-08:00

Anyone else think that this WILL BE the year of pop punk? How can it not with all of the scene leaders pumping out albums? I don't know either. It just has to be a sign that Brokencyde and other crap bands will be stomped out with amazing releases. Here's my list of albums that I'm looking forward to (not all are pop punk).

New Found Glory-Not Without A Fight

Blink-182- TBA
Green Day-21st Century Breakdown

My Chemical Romance-TBA
Sum 41-TBA
Relient K-TBA
NOFX-Coaster

Against Me!-TBA
Billy Talent-III
Set Your Goals-TBA
Glassjaw-TBA
Eve 6-TBA
All Time Low-TBA
Hellogoodbye-TBA
Panic At The Disco-TBA
MxPx-On the Cover II
Matchbook Romance-TBA
Cartel-Just Us vs. All The Others (not confirmed)
Chiodos-TBA
Paramore-TBA
Say Anything-TBA
The Mars Volta-Octahedron
The Rocket Summer-TBA
Saosin-TBA
The Used-Artwork
AFI-TBA
Taking Back Sunday-TBA
Cobra Starship-TBA
Manchester Orchestra-Mean Everything to Nothing

Mayday Parade-TBA
Emery-In Shallow Seas We Set Sail
Thrice-TBA
Every Time I Die-TBA
Envy on the Coast-TBA
fun.-TBA
Circa Survive-TBA
Person L-TBA
Modest Mouse-No One's Next and You're First
Brand New-TBA
The Audition-Self Titled

Ace Enders-When I Hit The Ground
This Providence-Who Are You Now?

The Decemberists-The Hazards of Love
The Higher-It's Only Natural
Nevershoutnever!-TBA
The Secret Handshake-My Name Up In Lights

Holiday Parade-Tickets and Pasports

My God, My God, My God

2009-01-23T21:32:00.000-08:00

Me and my friends all have mannerisms all different and uniquely our own
And yet when we're with each other they all melt together
My God this feels like home
Me and my friends all have adventures and go on explorations
And yet we don't need to do anything, no need for expectations
My God this feels like love

{CHORUS}
We just do what comes naturally
and naturally it comes
We don't live ephemerally
or experience doldrums
We are perfect the way that we are
And you couldn't hurt us if you tried

Racing through the streets after curfew
We know what it means to be alive
Playing dangerously won't hurt you
If you believe that you can't die
My God this feels like drugs

{Chorus}

You couldn't hurt us if you tried
You couldn't hurt us if you lied
You couldn't hurt us if you died
Because we're so alive. We're so alive.

The summer's settling in our skin so we can keep it for winter
And in our friendship we'll glow as we huddle together for shelter
My God this feels like home.

Bxstxrd

2009-01-11T18:01:00.000-08:00

BXSTXRD

{Chorus}
The Preacher's son is a bxstxrd
Saturday night, he's getting plastered
Sunday morning, he's getting pastored
But he just sits there with a dead stare
Nothing soaks in, Unbelief unspoken
and he's going to hell faster and faster
every day and as much as his father prays
He's still a bxstxrd

He impregnated the cutest girl in school
By following his interpretation of the golden rule
What started with a simple bat of the eyes
Now ends in something getting baptised and circumcised
What started from a knock,knock, knock on the door ends with her knocked up
It was out of wed lock, lock, lock, it seems this time he really fxxked up

{Chorus}

Ya he's the damned
The unholy son of Sam
He's the antichrist or might as well be
He's the congregations biggest enemy

{Chorus}

This Is a Poem?

2008-12-05T21:05:00.000-08:00

THIS IS A POEM?

Let's act just like we're normal because we both know we're not
We'll laugh because we hate ourselves but seriously we love ourselves
And won't it be so ironic? Won't the kids just be so shocked?

Well the sad thing Is we do wanna be just like them
And they wouldn't take us
So we're gunna show them we can be cool all on our own
And that's why we rebelled in the first place
And now we're gunna act just like them

Is there anyone just not trying to prove himself?
If there is, I'd surely love to meet him
But then again it's probably an act
So we want to act like we're not acting at all

If the worlds a stage then we're all the drama queens
So caught up in our roles that we forget what it all means
And What the hell does it all mean?

The coolest kids are those who don't fit in at all
Because they don't compromise or try to catch attention
Or maybe they didnt have the guts or maybe they tried but failed to catch attention
Either way they stayed the same
And will be better for it in the end

Let's act like we're normal
So we know how it feels
To act just like everyone we secretly want to be
But are too proud to let it just be
And what the hell does it all mean?

Nostalgia SchmaSchmalgia

2008-12-05T20:33:00.000-08:00

So. I miss the simpler days of being a middle schooler and carpooling with my friends and their moms. I miss playing N64 at my friends house with wicked games like James Bond: Eagle Eye. I miss being a rebel without a cause or a post pubescent voice. I miss that crap and I'll prolly miss high school when I'm a college student. So here's some flashback vids of some very influential songs of my awkward middle school years that led up to my now awkward high school years. The difference is that then I wasn't trying to figure out who I was. I just hung out with my friends. And this is what we were about.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SIFh5wwkRZE

Unfortunately I wasn't cool enough to be into Midtown at the time, but if I had been exposed I would have definitely liked this as well.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iBB0PqnqxZ0

I Can Be Random!

2008-11-13T20:05:00.000-08:00

you make jelly. we'll go on picnick sex hammers. today is farty bancharoo. let's get into GAY!

If Life Is What You Make of It, I'll Make Mine a Circus

2008-11-13T19:42:00.001-08:00

Hey, I haven't vented on here for quite awhile. Honestly, now that it's not summer, I don't have the same spirit as I did. I loathe fall, it's probably the worst season known to man. All those bright colors of life are now smeared with the muddy mush of slush. The emo in me would love it, but this year I'm not in the mood to be moody and full of gloom. This year, I want to start living the way that I want to and the way I should have been living all along. I'm not perfect by far, but I'm trying to cut the crap a little. I can be a real dick to people sometimes and I'm admittedly a very good alienator (apparently this isn't a real word, but it should be cuz it rocks. I am the ALIENATOR. I digress). A big part of me just wants to shut off my phone and listen to The Format while I read comic books. This antisocial attitude is just the terrible season getting to me I guess. For some reason seeing you favorite season just die away is really rough on you.

On that same note, on Halloween there was a monster in my yard. It was big and had gnashing teeth. It tore down my trees in the front yard leaving my home barren and alien to me. It was death on two wheels, and that's when I knew for sure that I hated fall. Usually the leaves on the trees fall off making them naked and ugly, but this year they took the whole kit-and-kaboodle. The sick part is that my parents didn't even ask me before they had a bulldozer knock out some of my childhood scenery. Ya, this season sucks hardcore.

Oh, and school? It just distracts me from my mental chi. I get headaches all the time now and I've already had 4 standardized tests. On my last ones I just gave up on the conceptual math and instead made pretty designs out of the sea of bubbles of the test sheet. I haven't really seen any of my friends either. They're busy now too. Thank God that fall leads to winter.

The sparkling wonderland filled with lights and family. Something to look forward to I guess.

A Real Downer

2008-11-12T20:07:00.000-08:00

A REAL DOWNER

{Chorus}
You're Letting Me Down, Down, Down
That's all I ever hear
Down, Down, Down, Everyday the same spiel
Well if I'm Letting you down so much
Why don't you lower your expectations?

It's hard to keep living up to this person you think I am
If I ever was this man, boy, I'll surely be damned
Because I can't remember a time in my life
When I was good enough
Well, you know what, I'm good enough as it is
And that's all there is
To it

{Chorus}

I admit I've fallen off the beam
I've quit every organized team
But please don't give up on me
You don't know how much that hurts
You only make It worse
I break down with every verse

Down, Down, Down
Down, Down, Down
You're breaking me down
Down, Down, Down

{Chorus}

Early, But I Wanna Get Some Nominees For Best Album of 2008

2008-11-12T16:57:00.000-08:00

---In No Specific Order---

BEST OVERALL ALBUM

Forgive Durden-Razia's Shadow
House of Heroes-The End Is Not The End
MGMT-Oracular Spectacular
Fleet Foxes-Fleet Foxes
Death Cab For Cutie-Narrow Stairs
Bon Iver-Dear Emma, Forever Ago
Amanda Palmer-Who Killed Amanda Palmer?
Anthony Green-Avalon
Dr. Dog-Fate
Good Old War- Only Way to be Alone
Relient K-The Bird and The Bee Sides
Jack's Mannequin-The Glass Passenger
Jenny Lewis-Acid Tongue
Lydia-Illuminate
Paper Rival-Dialog
Portugal. The Man-Censored Colors
She and Him-Volume One
Steel Train-Trampoline
The Raconteurs- Consolers of the Lonely
The Reign of Kindo-Chord and Melody
The Matches- A Band In Hope
Mindless Self Indulgence-If
The Mountain Goats-Heretic Pride

BEST IN POP PUNK

Fall Out Boy-Folie a Deux
The Maine-Can't Stop Won't Stop
Kid Down-I Want My Girlfriend Rich
Relient K-Bird and the B-sides
Sing It Loud-Come Around
The Audition-Champion
Hit the Lights-Skip School Start Fights
Punchline-Just Say Yes

GUILTY PLEASURE ALBUMS

3Oh!3-Want
Danger Radio-Used and Abused
The Cab-Whisper War
The Medic Droid-What's Your Medium
Runner Runner-Breakup Makeup
The Audition-Champion

BEST DANCE IN YOUR PANTS ALBUMS

Mindless Self Indulgence-If
Family Force Five-Dance or Die
Innerpartysystem-Innerpartysystem
Cash Cash-Cash Cash EP

BEST EP'S

Motion City Soundtrack-Acoustic EP
NeverShoutNever-The Yipee EP
Hellogoodbye-The Ukulele EP

You're Only As Sick As You're Prescribed. Me, I'm Just Along For The Ride.

2008-10-17T16:04:00.000-07:00

You smile so big that I think you're head might crack in half
That would be a serious occurance, but I think that I might laugh
Because that's just the state I'm in
And you wouldn't want to get in an argument
With someone in that predicament

{Chorus}:
I'm losing it, I'm losing it
I'm lost, drunk, falling in the street
I'm a hazard to anyone I meet
I lost you, lost you, lost you
Because you were to good for me

Remember those embers from the campfire no one knew we had
It was just our secret that burnt down Stalingrad
But in a funny way, that all makes me feel so glad
Because that's just the state I'm in
And you wouldn't want to get in an argument
With someone in that predicament

{Chorus}

I love bubble machines, I could watch them for hours
Hazy little stupid dreams, lazing in the flowers
I hate you with all that I have in me
I hope you burn on for and eternity
While I sit gazing, dreaming happily
If you died I would laugh

{Chorus}

If you died I would laugh. hahaha.

Bands I've Seen Live

2008-10-12T17:03:00.000-07:00

This list is more just for me, because I think it'd be a shame to see a band live and totally forget about it.

The Wallflowers, REO Speedwagon, Loser, Theory of a Deadman, Staind, Brighten, This Providence, All Time Low, Cute Is What We Aim For (x2), Alakrity, Illia, Willet, Chiodos, Paramore, Bayside, Hawthorne Heights, New Found Glory, Coheed and Cambria, Underoath, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, The Spill Canvas, Relient K, Bring Me the Horizon, Cobra Starship, The Academy Is..., Gym Class Heroes, Between the Trees, Angels and Airwaves, Every Time I Die, Four Year Strong, Gil Mantera's Party Dream, Forever the Sickest Kids, Switchfoot, As I Lay Dying, The Human Abstract, 36 Crazy Fists, Trivium, Against Me!, Ted Leo and the Pharmacists, Future of the Left, Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At the Disco, Chester French, Rehab (Unfortunately), Pomeroy, Lydia, Disco Curtis, You Me At Six, Deas Vail, Hey Monday, Mayday Parade, Artist Vs. Poet, We The Kings, The Summer Set, Something Corporate, The Morning Benders, The Black Keys, Oceano, Close Your Eyes, Venia, For Today, Texas In July, This Or The Apocolyspe, Deception of a Ghost, DM Smith, Sufjan Stevens, The Head and the Heart, Iron & Wine, Into It. Over It., Andrew Jackson Jihad, Frank Turner

Lemonade Stand

2008-09-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

LEMONADE STAND

If life hands you lemons then make lemonade
But if nobody's buying then you don't get paid
And they cost too much for you to give them away

It's like me and my life aren't on the same page
When I'm stuck here making minimum wage
When in reality, I just wanna be miles and miles and miles away

Good things don't come to those who wait
It takes good luck and a pretty face
It takes timing and a powerful name
If life hands you Starbucks then you've got it made

This Isn't Over Yet

2008-08-07T20:24:00.000-07:00

Once again there has been like a week or so gap in my blogging. It's mainly because I'm still in utter shock from the warped tour! It was amazing!!!!! I got to meet my heroes Relient K and see them perform live! I also saw Bring Me the Horizon, and they have a crazy awesome live performance. Even better I got to spend this with my friends, all of whom are irreplaceable to me. I only wish I could have taken more of my friends, especially Nathan, who got jipped out of going. On Sunday I leave for Chicago for vacation. I hope that I'll still be posting stuff even on vacation. Sorry that this is so not enough blog to cover my absence, but you still have all my love!

Stay Out All Night, 'Cause Rest Is For The Dead

2008-07-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

I'm going to break down on the first day of school. I've been trying my best to block out all visions of textbooks and planners from my mind. This summer can't end. It's been so amazingly wonderful for me. I don't want to watch the sun sink and drown in the depths of fall. From my fourth of July drama to catching fireflies in the park. To the future excursion to the Warped Tour with all my friend or summer camp nights talking around the fire. This summer is my life. I never want it to end.

To all the friends who make me smile when I'm depressed or hug me for no reason at all... you will always live in summer for me. Let it never die.

Ummmmmmmmm....... wtf?

2008-07-30T15:24:00.000-07:00

Ahead Of Me

2008-07-30T14:45:00.000-07:00

I wrote this after a particularly sucky day of work. It's a song about staying optimistic. I'm not suicidal by the way.

AHEAD OF ME

When I get sick of this
And I've had just about enough of it
And I just wanna blow my brains out
I don't quit
I just think

{CHORUS}
I won't let myself forget
That this isn't over yet
And it's gunna be pretty great I bet
I won't let myself forget
That this isn't over yet
Just you wait and see
I've got so much more ahead of me

Keeping things sunny side up
Just need a little more OJ in my cup
And I'll be chipper as a new born babe
Fully ready to take on the day
Just you wait and see
All the things I'll show you I can be

{CHORUS}

Another Year Older, and I Still Haven't Given Up

2008-07-29T13:22:00.001-07:00

I'm officially seventeen. Woopity doo.

Friendship Is A Lot Like A Beartrap

2008-07-28T17:18:00.000-07:00

To start with, sorry for any typos. I'm at a friend's house and am using his wifi to blog off my mp3 player. Like many of my topics, this entry has to do with friends and my ever going quest to understand them. I still don't though. What turns an acquaintance into a friend? What are the qualifications and necessities of being one?
And when is it time to tell your friend that you want nothing to do with them?
I'm having some problems with a few of these questions. It's weird that so much emotion goes into just an idea. We feel the need for this idea, because we all want to be noticed and loved. But beyond that need for human interaction, would there really be any grounds for friendship? Are we all just working at selfish motives and want others to acknowledge our existence?
To all these hollow and depressing questions I have one thing to say: "Who the hell cares?" This idea is real because we made it real. It really seems to mean something because we need it to. Without friendship or love, we break down to the bleak, bare underbelly of the human mind. Which is where our society seems to be heading.
Do yourself and everyone else a favor and don't forget how to feel. Don't forget friendship.

I'm Officially Addicted!

2008-07-24T21:22:00.000-07:00

Ya, I know.... even more.... I can't help it!

Errbody Be Hatin'

2008-07-24T12:54:00.001-07:00

Ok, polls are in: a good umm... NOBODY likes emo kids except for emo kids themselves. If you don't believe me, I have proof and lots of it. Whole countries hate emos. Mexico, England, and Russia are all revolting on the growing scene. Dumbest of all is that scene kids hate emos....... wait what? Ya, apparently they're not the same thing. Emo kids are fine and lots of people think I'm emo. I'm not though; I'm a sunshine emo at best. At least I don't hate them though, geez.

A la the PROOF:

http://www.thedailyswarm.com/headlines/mob-emo-bashings-sweep-mexicotelevis-vjs-rants-inspire-violence/

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-566481/Why-child-safe-sinister-cult-emo.html

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/magazine/7425450.stm

http://www.nme.com/news/my-chemical-romance/38392

http://www.smh.com.au/news/national/scene-kids-are-like-so-not-wannabe-emos/2008/03/29/1206207488553.html

Bring Me the Horizon- You Are..... Drunk?

2008-07-24T12:08:00.001-07:00

Another funny interview video, that is, if you can understand it. Drunk + Brittish = Barely Even Audible. It's still rediculous and hilarious though. Worth at least one watch. Worth way more if you're a fan of the band.

MORE SHIRTS

2008-07-22T22:08:00.001-07:00

These Clothes Would Look Dang Good On You

2008-07-22T14:02:00.000-07:00

Sorry If you're not in the area to get these shirts, but if you are I have several designs to choose from. If you want one, let me know and I'll put you on the ordering list.

SPOTLIGHT: Courtney and Hannah

2008-07-22T10:56:00.000-07:00

Ok, so on my facebook group I'm having a spotlight section for anyone who wants their talents displayed on the webpage. This is one from some friends I have from school. Check it out and tell them what you think of it in the comments!

"OUT OF YOUR CONTROL"

(verse 1)
All these days you've been away I couldn't ask for more,
I've got a freedom that I didn't know i had before,
Now that your gone I feel that I can finally let go,
Because your there and I am here and out of your control

(verse 2)
I've got feeling deep inside me now that I can breath,
I've got this look upon my face I know that you can't read,
You think I'm crazy but you really gota let it go,
Because your there and I am here and out of your control

(chorus)
Your there and I am her and it's not worth the fight,
lets just move on and forget about each other's lives,
Don't get me wrong I'm ready now to fight my way,
I'm getting stronger and it's easier to run, rather than stay

(verse3)
I see you walkin and I realize now that you can't breath,
You've got this look upon your face and it just screams crazy,
You've gone insane cuz you can't figure out my next move,
Because your there and I am here and out of your control

(chorus)
Your there and I am her and it's not worth the fight,
lets just move on and forget about each other's lives,
Don't get me wrong I'm ready now to fight my way,
I'm getting stronger and it's easier to run, rather than..

(bridge)
Stayin forever, I'm leavein everything to you,
(so you can) do what every you want to do with your life,
But don't come cryin to be sayin how much your sorry,
Cuz I'm sick of the lies and the way that you brought me down...

(chorus)
Your there and I am her and it's not worth the fight,
lets just move on and forget about each other's lives,
Don't get me wrong I'm ready now to fight my way,
I'm getting stronger, I'm getin Stronger, I'm getin STRONGER......

By, Hannah B. and Courtney V.B.

Emo Overdone

2008-07-22T10:23:00.001-07:00

Now THIS ONE is one I made. Tell me whatcha think!

Fat Chicks + Clandestine

2008-07-22T09:52:00.000-07:00

Wow, I didn't make this, but I still think It's effin' funny.

The Future's So Bright

2008-07-20T23:35:00.000-07:00

Sorry for any typos, as they are inevitable while using my archos to blog. It's late right now, and me being a nocturnal beast, I have yet to count enough sheep to lull myself into an unconscious state. So, instead, I've decided to blog. Just about some things that have been on my mind.

Youth is a privilage, a sacred blessing, and a divine excuse to be wreckless. Those who are young are often told that they should stay young because it's the best time of life. Youth often translates to beauty. The media latches on to the idea and rips it to shreds while trying to sell their crappy department store sweaters. What could possibly top ths golden age of irrespomsibility?

If you're a teen drama movie fan like me, you may have seen a little movie called The Breakfast Club. If so, you may have noted on some of the film's core themes; one of which was that your soul dies when you grow up. My immediate answer to that is, "Not if I have anything to do with it." But I do think that many people just allow their hearts to shrivel up and croak. They get so wrapped up in the monotony of their day to day lives that they forget how amazing the world around them truly is. Ya, I know, it's a little deep for someone who has been around on the planet about as long as cell phones.

After these thoughts, the next location is development. Not too difficult. Anytime an anxiety arizes or the human brain switces to co pilot due to lack of emotional response. Personally, I just try to remind myself that where I'm at is only on the road to where I want to be. It generally makes the situation seem petty compared to the big picture. The big picture isn't so much a picture as it is a puzzle built up of all the small things that make you smile. Once you notice and acknowledge those things do you begin to see the bigger picture which help keep your soul alive.

Finally, this leads to the future. For me, I know that a lot will change and opportunities will take me in directions I hadn't invisioned myself going in. With this in mind, there are only a few things that I want out of life: to stay optimistic, to be around friends and family, to be doing something with my life to be proud of, and to never ever lose sight of how much love can make a difference.

Pop Culture Is Like a Fine Wine That Gets Wasted At a Frat Party

2008-07-19T18:13:00.000-07:00

This song is a total callout to fake bands who think they're cool because they can use bits and pieces of whatever they've picked up from TMZ that evening. This means you, Sell Out Boy.

POP CULTURE IS LIKE A FINE WINE THAT GETS WASTED AT A FRAT PARTY

{Chorus}
If hips don't lie
You must be a good lover
Because you dance like none other
I wish my hips could lie
Because my steps have stutter
And my moves are like butter

I tend to ruin things by being myself
Sometimes I wish I could be cool like Slater off Saved By the Bell

{Chorus}

Can you tell I'm trying to be clever?
Picking on pop culture
Like it's the meat and I'm the vulture
But I'm feeling lazy
So I think I'll name drop Patrick Shwayze

{Chorus}

This is everything you want to hear and more
It's too much for your ear thus it becomes a bore
It's becoming all to clear that following the clichés is the way to score

{Chorus}

Mr. Rogers and Mr. T
Got in a bar fight with Barney
And High School Musical had a baby
And it's name was redundancy
That's all, goodbye, peace

Joker: You Are my Freakin' Manlover!

2008-07-19T18:02:00.000-07:00

Alright, so sorry I've neglected to post this until right now, but I don't really care. Jk, Jk, I love everyone who takes the time of day to look at my blog! I'll bake you cookies! I'll do it! I swear.
Anyways, I'll make a tab to be more professional and less rambling. Ummmm... batman movie? TITS. Sorry for the profanity, but this movie rocked my socks off in the most epic way that socks have been rocked in all of history! Every single word that comes out of Heath Ledger's posthumous and scarred to frick face is dazzlingly brilliant. There are parts of this move that had me dropping my jaw into my proverbial popcorn. If I haven't summed up how much your life does not matter if you have not seen this movie, look at this review from Jason Tate from absolutepunk (http://www.absolutepunk.net/journal.php?do=showentry&e=41711), hey, he knows his sxxt and his sxxt is fricken Dark Knight. Oh, and WATCH THIS EFFIN MOVIE BEFORE I BLOW YOU UP WITH THE HEAT VISION I WISH I HAD RIGHT NOW!!!!!!! That's not a threat, It's a promise. bxxch!

jk, jk.

Jack and Alex: You Are TOO Funny

2008-07-19T18:01:00.000-07:00

LAWL. This video is great, they are so clever and sarcastic! "I would cut off his legs, and then he could ride no bicycles! except with his hands, bxxch!"

Quiet Times

2008-07-17T19:07:00.000-07:00

I have a friend who I spent last night with who said something very wise whether she knew it or not. She said, "Sometimes the best times are the quiet times where no one speaks." Pretty simple in theory, but she totally has a point. You know that your friends are true if you can just sit and shut up without getting awkward. It's like there's an understood conversation going on, and one that is more important than just messing around. This is what it was like as we laid in the park together (her, her boyfriend, and me). After which it turned to dusk and they shared some romantic time by themselves while I caught fireflies. Ya, this all happened after I got ditched at the coffee shop. All in all, a pretty amazing day off. I also made some new graphics for advertising my blog! Feel free to post them anywhere and everywhere, because I'd love the advertising! Stay the way you are, because that's the way I love you best!

Coffee Shop Soundtrack

2008-07-16T14:04:00.000-07:00

So I'm just chillaxin at my local coffee shop while enjoying the free wifi they offer. It's my day off from work and it's pretty nice to be able to just sit and not have any responsibilities. I kinda got ditched here by friends, but it's all good because other friends are gunna pick me up. Either way, I'm feeling very independent at the moment and still pretty cool to be blogging mobily. Anyways, I better go before my battery totally dies. much love!

Meant For This

2008-07-15T18:43:00.000-07:00

I noticed a shortage of songs being posted lately so I'd thought I'd rectify it with a little diddy! Oh and it's not about me or anyone really, I just came up with a few rhymes that worked and sounded nice. Sorry for those who thought I had a sweetheart. I'm a heartbreaker, what can I say. (kidding)

MEANT FOR THIS

Your picture makes a perfect fixture
On my wall
A mixture of love and fear; an elixer
That says it all

{Chorus}
We were meant for this
Even though we were star-crossed
And had love lost
It's pretty clear
We were meant for this

Your photo makes a healthy addition to my wallet
My little sunshine: at least that's what I call it
It's nice to see you when I grab my money
To remind me that I still have something
To call my own
You call me at home
Even though I have a cell phone
You say you like to have dial tone
And it's less fun to play alone

{Chorus}
We were meant for this
Even though we were star-crossed
And had love lost
It's pretty clear
We were meant for this

We like the way the summer radiates our skin
That aroma
Of melanoma
It's better to get burned than not to have let it in

{Chorus}
We were meant for this
Even though we were star-crossed
And had love lost
It's pretty clear
We were meant for this

We were meant for this
We were meant for this
We were meant for this
Our love is endlessness

Chya I'm Ready for More TAI!

2008-07-15T14:47:00.000-07:00

So, Santi was dece, I'll give them that. In no way at all does it compare to this amazingness though!

http://www.myspace.com/theacademyis

Hide and Go Seek

2008-07-13T23:30:00.000-07:00

Hide and go seek is a totally silly game that no one over the age of ten should play... but of course, being me, I did. It was generally fun and pretty generic in the outcomes. This all led me to a deeper meaning to unravel behind the metaphor of the game. We all have the tendencies to hide our true feelings behind some facade or another. Some people want to be taken seriously, so they only do things that are considered socially acceptable and this fakeness in the end is what totally gives their weak inner hider away. Others may pretend to be happy and on the inside really feel like a hollow vast pit. Or maybe it's none of these things, but in some way we're hiding something from the world. So who's going to seek it? True love is having someone find out your flaws and telling you that they don't care. Not just the mushy kind of love as seen on any ABC Family made for TV movie, but real love that's shared between people who can bear to co-exist with each other. I want to seek out your problems. I want to be your solution. I want to be the first to show you how much you matter. If this sounds dumb than you obviously don't know me. <3!

ARHOS You've come home to me!

2008-07-13T00:13:00.000-07:00

I'm going to have to make his message pretty short because I'm still getting used to the touch screen keyboard on my wonderful mp3 player that I just got back. Writing this out took me like 5 minutes! The important thing is that I can now blog mobile! Hate to brag, but I'm feeling pretty techno advanced right now!

A Week Later, And I Haven't Given Up

2008-07-12T11:13:00.001-07:00

Wow! The last time I posted was on the 4th! A lot of crazy stuff has happened since then and it feels like it's been an eternity ago! So, the reason I haven't been posting at all was because I was at Boy Scout camp. Ya, it sounds lame, but I had a REALLY amazing time. I'm hoping to get some pictures of it and even some video. I'm back though, and I'll be posting regularly once again!

Why So Many?

2008-07-04T12:48:00.001-07:00

Sorry for posting so much today, I'm REALLY bored and have nothing better to do. So, I have an addiction to absolutepunk.net and I frequently look at the comments people leave. I find it wierd though how almost EVERY avatar on there has a picture of some random person but with joker eyes and smile and the text "Why So Serious?". Ya, so I guess everyones pumped for that movie to come out? Idk, I thought I'd jump on the bandwagon and make some parody ones! Tell me what you think!

The Sandlot 4th of July

2008-07-04T12:32:00.000-07:00

If this clip doesn't say Independence Day, I don't know what does.

Happy Wiener Firework Summer Flag Wavy Day!

2008-07-04T12:20:00.001-07:00

Little Gretta loves Independence Day! To bad she was bit by a rabid eagle! She's still going to have a good time though because she's very patriotic! Yay Gretta!

If My Forehead Could Vomit, It Would

2008-07-03T22:10:00.000-07:00

I had a very long night at my job. I won't bore you with details, but let's just say I feel pretty crummy. I hope that you don't feel the same. I hope you feel like everything is magic and you're the alchemist. I could be the alchemist, to make you feel better. But first I need some sleep, because I have a headache the size of Montana. <3!

Blazing

2008-07-03T21:41:00.000-07:00

BLAZING

Are you okay?

If the answer is no

Would you tell me so

Or would you tell me otherwise

Don't feed me lies

Are you okay?

Don't beat yourself up

Lift your chin to the sky

You're so better than this

Let me tell you why

When the satalites and the stars collide

And the fireflies fall from the sky

It's raining light in the sky tonight

It's so amazing and blazing with light

And on a night like tonight

How can't you feel alive?

I feel like the world could forget me in an instant

I feel like giving it all up to die

All the world lives out their lives, and if one was missing

Who would really miss it? Would I?

I rode to your house on my bike

Just in time to see you on the rooftop

I screamed "You don't wanna end it tonight!

Let me talk, and please just please stop!"

She said, "what do I have to life for?

What can I really offer?

There's no hope

So I'll give up the ghost

The world's so hard, that the ground seems softer"

"You don't wanna die like this

Think of all the life you'll miss

I came hear to save you from yourself

Just listen to me, and I can be of help"

Don't beat yourself up

Lift your chin to the sky

You're so much better than this

Let me save your life

Whenever you feel down and out

Don't be rash, we can talk it out

That's what friendship's all about

And you and me like brothers we'll be

lifted to the sky, I have no doubt

Are you okay?

If the answer is no

Just let me know

And I'll show you how much you mean to me

Jenny.

2008-07-02T13:32:00.001-07:00

Weeding sucks. That's all.

My History In Loving RK

2008-07-02T13:11:00.000-07:00

The first time I ever heard of Relient K was at summer camp where they were singing it at a camp sing-along night. Then a year later my two best friends pretty much forced me to download a bunch of their songs. I was a little uneasy at first, but as I listened to the words and their subcontext, I start to like them more and more. There has been several times when I have started to lose faith and than a Relient K song turned me back around. It's easy to believe when you hear Matt Thiessen sing. No one can deny that his lyrics are double dipped in love. In the 8th grade, I went as far to write an essay on how Matt Thiessen was my hero. That was the same year I purchased my first full RK cd which was Mmhmm. In the 9th grade I had a girlfriend who asked me to pick 'our' song. I chose a Relient K song. And this year, finally I'm going to see them in their full glory in concert! It's been a musical and happy road with me and RK.

If you like how RK sounds, try out: The Rocket Summer, Hellogoodbye, and Mae

Revenge is a Meal Often Followed With Humble Pie

2008-07-02T10:51:00.000-07:00

If you remember this little post
that I was feeling quite the victor of my previous job during, you'd probably note how entirely cocky I was during the who 'revenge' thing. Ya, well, cumupence has been served on a hot plate with beans and guacamole. See, my dad's the one who convinced me to take pervasive action on the late night vengeance filled dining, but he then a week later groveled to the manager to give me a job. Ya, I don't know, I don't get it either. Point being, I'm back working at the place I thought I had rid myself of, and I'm going to be closing with that lucky person I screwed over for a night. Greeeaaat. But I'm never one to complain and I'm sure that I can work through this and eventually be a winner at last. Hey, at least the hours are good.

Relient K Has Once Again Saved My Life

2008-07-01T14:32:00.000-07:00

For many reasons, RK vie for my heart's true favorite band. They can inevitably do nothing wrong in my eyes. Their new EP with it's 26 tracks doesn't prove this wrong. So to celebrate how amazing I find RK, I'm going to do some extra special things with the blog. Watch me go! Matt Theissen was actually my hero for an 8th grade English report. I can't help but smile when I listen to their sweet music.

Danger Radio Album Stream!

2008-06-30T21:33:00.000-07:00

These guys are really sugary and catchy! Listen to their new album Used and Abused on AP.net. Link below.

http://www.absolutepunk.net/artists/showlink.php?do=showdetails&l=6611

If Summer was a Sport, I'd Be an Athlete

2008-06-29T21:22:00.000-07:00

Kite flying was amazing, and I got some really good photos too. Tell me what you think please! I'd love to know!

Beds in the Yard

2008-06-29T13:39:00.000-07:00

It's no secret, I really like to be outside under my favorite tree. And I really like cloudless nights with a thousand stars. So, the plan is, to get some old bedsprings from the nursing hom my mom works at and set them up outside. I really love the idea, because it just seems so odd and whimsical to me. Hopefully everything works out for me. Also, today my brother and I are flying kites..... I love this season! It just reminds me of how much love there is left in the world. All the love in me, I give to you. Thank you if you read this!

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 14

2008-06-28T10:29:00.001-07:00

There was once a house of glass
With the master of the manor being a man of
Very mysterious manners
He would glance at anyone who happened to pass
Outside his window

Yes, indeed, it's quite hard to sneak up on someone who has a house of glass
No, this gentleman did not fit the standards
But that's awful hard to do when your house is a terrible mass
Of clear sand and crystal, oh so brittle

The fiances had now spotted the house and the gentleman inside
For who could miss him in his crystal abyss
Of tears freshly cried

The couple said that they were tired from the trip
And the master of the manor promised to keep good fellowship
"And apart from having quirks everything in the house works,"
He assured them, "And as a house it's quite alright."
So the couple said they'd stay, if only for the night

The master was actually good with confrontation
Except that mid conversation
He'd break out in tongues
He said that they were special blessings from the Lord, that built up in his lungs
"And besides some of my quirks, I'm still in my right mind"

Bird and the Bee Sides Preview!

2008-06-28T09:53:00.000-07:00

On amazon you can get snippets of the entire new album by Relient K!!! follow this link for happiness!

http://www.amazon.com/gp/recsradio/radio/B001AS6WBC/ref=pd_krex_dp_a

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 13

2008-06-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

This chapter holds quite a fateful number
An Omen, a curse, that predicts future blunders
and in this case it is much the same
But for the young man and his bride to be
Luck has seemed never to agree
And it seems that there's always a cloud of rain
And when there's rain, there's thunder

After spending tender moments by the shore
They vowed never to see this town anymore
They could only do damage by staying
But in leaving they've done worse by far

With the night about and the lantern fraying
As they left the town, they'd leave a scar
The man took out a candle
And then took out a match
Thew that at his feet
Which was more than the dry leaves could handle
Because instantly they started to catch
And out of them was to hatch
The small town's defeat

The couple vowed that as they left they wouldn't look back
But if they had they'd see the town lit
By them not wanting to hurt the people they charred them black
And neither of the two knew a bit
That as they walked out of town, it was on fire along with every person in it

I'll Give Until There's Nothing Left

2008-06-27T22:29:00.000-07:00

Doing things for your friends can get expensive.... and pretty anoying, just ask the random lady at Wal Mart I flipped out on over a Vitamin Water secretly bought behind my back. Ya, it's complicated. Let's just say I'm not proud of the way I acted. But by the end of the night a thought occured to me while I was stewing in guilt. That thought is: Money comes and goes, friendship lasts a lifetime. If you live your life by this, having expenses won't get in the way of being a generous person to people that probably need a good friend who'll buy things for them. So needless to say I decided to spread some more love and bought my mom a shake at a certain fast food chain. I also drew my dad a picture to tell him how much he's appreciated. And I'm always generous when it comes to love and guidance, so if you need advice or just someone to tell you that they'll be there for you, don't be afraid to ask. <3!

Kiss Off!

2008-06-27T15:21:00.000-07:00

KISS OFF!

{CHORUS}
She likes to dance
I know because she boogied all over my grave
She said, "Kiss Off!"
And I said, "Now girl, behave"

She's feisty
She's spicy
Good thing she likes me
Or it could be pricey

{Chorus}

I've got the gun inside my hand
Listen to me, babe
She's got the pistol by the handle
But it's just a game we play

You're the cutest little trainwreck I've ever seen
You've got meltdown down to a science
You're more woman that I can conceive
It's electric, I can't deny it

{Chorus}

bubblegum baby
ice cream darling
cotton candy lady
you're so alarming

She likes to dance
I know because she boogied all over my grave
She said, "Kiss Off!"
She said, "Kiss Off!"

I Need a Time Warp Because I Can't Wait for Waped '08

2008-06-27T15:04:00.000-07:00

I just got my new Alternative Press magazine and I'm pretty sure that I'm SUPER pumped to go. Because of recent drama with friends, I was considering not even showing up for it.... but now, I'm thinking, "Screw it! If they don't wanna go, it's their problem." So ya, I'm gunna order my tickets and it's HAPPENING!!!!!! ya!

Six Feet Under the Stars

2008-06-25T13:49:00.001-07:00

Last Night I slept on my front lawn under my favorite tree. I saw a shooting star and made the same wish that I made on a dandelion on the last day of school. It was: "I wish this to be the best summer of my life." So far, thanks to friends and family, it's coming true. I hope anyone who reads this has a great summer too! Much Love!

You're Breaking the Law

2008-06-25T11:00:00.000-07:00

Idk, but I'm pretty sure that this has hit potential. Let me know what you think about it though!

YOU'RE BREAKING THE LAW

{Chorus}
Melony
Your so fine it should be
A felony
And my friends keep tellin' me
Go for it! Go for it!

You wanna go to a movie
Or walk in the park
Laugh all night
Not be home 'til dark?

You wanna dance in the rain
And forget all the pain
Of the drama
Your friends put on ya?

{Chorus}

You never go by the books
And as far as looks
You're breaking the law
That was all that it took
And now you've got me hooked
You're breaking the law

{Chorus}

Take That Former Employer, Your Past Employee Just Became a Destroyer

2008-06-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

You know how awesome it feels to have the last laugh. I don't recommend it, because it's particularly nasty and not very nice, but getting revenge is quite satisfying. I just ate at Taco John's after close and winked at a former co-worker that treated me like shh-(watchu say?!). It was my dad's idea because I recently got "fired" from Taco Magina's for no apparent reason except the management switched. But I warn you, you might accidently bite your tongue if you have the last laugh while your being tongue-in-cheek. But the blood that came from that mixed with the taco meat and I soon forgot about it while I was enjoying my sweet sweet victory over a crappy job and sucky, drunk, drug enduced, sexually active, a-hole co-workers who called me their bxtch and made me do extra work. I might just be dining at Taco OurFoodMakesYouTasteLikeADogThrewUpInYourMouthAndOldFartJuiceLeakedFromYourGreatUncleLouie'sAnalCavityOntoYourTongue's all week long.

They've Been With You Your Whole Life

2008-06-24T15:39:00.000-07:00

I don't know what your relationship is with your family is. If you love your family though, hang out with them. Spend a day with them, because it really centers your life out. These people, you know, will be around you through thick and thin. And if they won't, they're not really family. I'm saying all this because my family recently took a day off from the real world and visited an old favorite local this Sunday. Dairy Dandy was where we went, a half diner half mini putt putt course. This is one of my favorite places in the world and as I remembered it, it was a small diner with 25 flavors of ice cream and a very enjoyable putt putt course. As it turned out the course was fallen apart and the peanut butter ice cream was stale. But you know what, it was still the best trip to Dairy Dandy yet and we all laughed so hard that we about fainted. Steven actually fell over from laughter. The course had one working motor left for all 19 holes, and my mom almost broke that one. I shot a golfball through a window of a fake building and threadbare greens caused near impossible holes. We all laughed while eating ice cream and my dad actually said the words "I'm drowning in my own mouth!" Do yourself a favor: Pay attention to your family. They've got your back and are always good for a laugh.

ZOMG! Hottest Album of the Summer!

2008-06-24T15:25:00.001-07:00

3Oh!3 is streaming on their myspace! get it while it hot!

http://www.myspace.com/3oh3

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 12

2008-06-23T21:40:00.000-07:00

So Olivia and the boy with a shark for a hand
Had now devised a needed plan
To move away from all the people who didn't understand
So they didn't have to maim
Everyone who wanted to see them apart
And it would be the same
Because when your in love, you never have a change of heart

For now they needed to be out of reach
So they decided to go to the beach
Where they first laid eyes on each other
And where the boy had won the girl over

"Sweet Olivia, no one thinks that we should be
But you're still here with me
Darling Olivia, I've had to kill most of your family
But you didn't abandon me
Dear, Dear Olivia, I have something on my mind
And the words are kind of hard to find
When I've said my peace, I'm sure you'll see
Why it was so hard for me."
Then the young man got on one knee
And took out a crystal from the see
It was attached to a golden band
Which he slip onto her ruby hand
And said finally,
"Olivia, my dear, will you marry me?"

And of course she said yes and started to cry
And as the sun set behind them and larks flew by
They shared a kiss that didn't finish until the sun was gone beneath the sea

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 11

2008-06-23T21:15:00.000-07:00

I hope that last chapter didn't turn you off
Or make you sick
Too much that you stop reading this
Well If you're still here with me
I have plenty more for you to read
And I promise It won't be as bad as that

The boy with the shark for a hand put a muzzle on up to his wrist
Because hurting Olivia was a risk
When he had to carry her to the hospital
If her father hadn't have pushed her
This wouldn't have happened at all

Olivia slept sound in the hospital bed
Her skin was cracked and extra red
And dark bruises were showing up
At least she wasn't dead and nothing had broke
When she finally awoke
Here voice so soft that only the boy heard when she spoke
"What happened?" she questioned
The boy told her and said
"I'm sorry but your old man is dead."
She said back in a voice covered in black
"Don't even bother, that man was not my father."
And they stayed quiet after that
like all the sound in the world couldn't answer their questions

Who else would have to die before these two could be happy and alive?

Your Voice is the Soundtrack to My Summer

2008-06-23T18:29:00.000-07:00

Im gunna throw some more music knowledge atcha. These are my most anticipated albums of the summer and early fall.... I'm prolly going to forget some, but ya, here's some.

1. Relient K- The Bird and the B-Sides (jul. 1)

2. Cute Is What We Aim For- Rotation (June24)

3. Gym Class Heroes- The Quilt (TBA)

4. Underoath- Lost in the Sound of Separation (sep. 2)

5. Danger Radio- Used and Abused(jul. 8)

6. The Maine- Can't Stop Won't Stop (jul. 8)

7. Hit the Lights- Skip School Start Fights (jul. 8)

8. 3OH!3- Want (jul. 8)

Some Picnik'd Pix of Our Night Of Splee

2008-06-21T16:05:00.000-07:00

LOL!!!! I love Mexican History!!! for some reason, that's the funniest thing in the world
Ya, This pic is SO my facebook profile pic.

FACE VALUE

2008-06-21T15:50:00.000-07:00

FACE VALUE

I want to do so much for you
I want to make you proud
But when you've done all that you can do
Sometimes the only step to take is down

What do you want me to say?
Do you have to smother and damn?
The magic just went away
at the end of the day
Could you just let me be what I am?

This is me, honestly
Maybe I'm not meant to be great
Don't you see, this is me
It's not up for debate
Won't you please, forgive me?
I'm sorry I'm second rate
But this is me, honestly

I can't do better than this because this is all there is
Maybe I'm not supposed to be the best or even who you are
Can't you just take me for what I am?
After I've fallen so far

It's not right, but who am I to say who's right or wrong?
We don't honestly know, so we try to play along
I've done my best for you
Take it at face value

EAT SOME MORE BREAKFAST, YOU BXSTXRDS!!!

2008-06-21T14:36:00.000-07:00

The powerful words in the title of this post were uttered by my father this morning causing a massive amount of laughing and a minor amount of peeing ones own trousers. This was just the morning though. Craziness had reached critical mass last night as I invited over the craziest, most obnoxious friend I had to a super awesome sleepover where we watched a ton of Invader Zim and drew sketches of my adorable kitty. Words cannot describe the mayhem that ensued, but I hope the plethora of pictures we took can help. CHILLAX WITH YOUR BAD SELF!

BYAHHHH!!!! Cute Is What We Aim For full album stream!!!!!

2008-06-20T14:18:00.000-07:00

on their myspace! get it while it's hot!

http://www.myspace.com/cuteiswhatweaimfor

Hayley Williams. You Are Talent.

2008-06-20T13:23:00.000-07:00

Mario would be admiring those pipes for sure.

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 10

2008-06-19T17:09:00.000-07:00

WARNING!! this chapter is VERY disturbing/violent. Read only if your stomach can stand it.

On the way to the morgue was whence
The father got his cumupence
Even though it was grim, his corpse hadn't had enough karma yet
And this is about as violent as it gets
But the father's body had fell out of the back
Of the ambulance and was under attack
By wolves who's cold eyes were deep and black
And who ripped the father limb from limb
Casting his innards whilst splaying him
I'm sorry, but I warned you it would be grim

His blood flowed down the rocks as birds pecked his motionless face
Even the maggots had come to get a taste
It seemed that all the animals had assembled
To poke and prod and rip through his flesh
Till all that was left was a ghastly mess
Of hair and bones and sinew
If you say it, you wouldn't eat for a week, I bet you
And in this pile of decaying mush
I admit that there wouldn't be much
To keep anyone up at night
Or haunt anyone's life

It was quite humiliating I'm sure you can appreciate
Made worse, because all the animals chose to defecate
All of the father that they'd digested
Back on the pile of pulp and then left it
What a graceful way to decay

Glamour Kills (Please Shove Yourself Into My Closet Like a Refugee, Because All Your Clothes Would Look Good On Me)

2008-06-19T15:38:00.001-07:00

ya. lengthy title, I know. But necessary! I love pretty much every shirt they make, and want their 100% cotton all up ons mah bod! I have a birthday coming up on july 29...... just saying......

these are my favorites, some of them are modeled by girls, but those are unisex sizes. the firs purple one is my favorite.... so true.

Things Go From Bad to Armageddon (officially)

2008-06-19T15:25:00.000-07:00

the aforementioned song that I wrote about how my friends pretty much suck when it comes to friendship.

THINGS GO FROM BAD TO ARMAGEDDON

None of my friends are friends with each other
Remember when we called each other brothers?
Now all i got is a ticket stub to a rock show
And nobody to go

{Chorus}
What the hell happened to all my friends?
How come things go from bad to Armageddon?
Well at the end of the summer
Will we still have each other?
I'll let you know how it ends

We're amputated friends
Living on separate continents
I heard "alls well that ends well"
I hope we can all be friends in hell

{Chorus}

I'm literally stuck with all the stubs
And all that I give off is love
You were all thinking of yourselves
Maybe we can all be friends in hell

{Chorus}

Gah! Things Go From Bad to Armogedon

2008-06-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

I'm going to write a song soon. Hope to get it done later tonight? not like it's already late and I'm at my grandma's house, but you know. It's whatever. But the chorus is definitely going to be

"None of my friends are friends with each other

Remember when we call each other brothers

Now all I got is a ticket stub to a rock show

and nobody to go"

ya, it sounds pretty good in my head. But depressingly it's very accurate to my current state of affairs. All I can do is reflect my love onto my friends and hope for the best. For now I just hope I don't end up with all the ticket stubs and no friends.... letcha know how it ends when it does!

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 9

2008-06-17T21:52:00.000-07:00

This chapter starts where the last left off
With the boy in the doorway and Olivia fallen from her loft
She screamed and writhed before fainting from pain
From atop the stairs with his gun full
Of bullets and pointed at the young man's skull
This ending could not be soft

"You've meddled enough, boy, look what you've made me do!"
With these words the father's anger grew
Into a crazed yell from the bowels of hell
Where the demons take turns devouring you

Now most people didn't know that in reality
The shark hand had a personality
But it certainly did and it's only moods
are bitter, unruly rage and how to get food
And in both thes cases the father seemed fit
The shark's intentions became clear as it chewed at the bit
Spewing saliva in buckets of spit
Rage is like a bucket and when it's full it spills
That's why the father's face had grown wild
And his lips curled up into a twisted smile
And he kept this expression all the while
The shark hand bit and bit and bit
Tearing out the father's throat
And in one last cry he screamed,
"I hope I keep you up at night and never let you dream!"

Thomas Edison's Got Nuthin on The Devil

2008-06-17T12:29:00.000-07:00

My life has a lot of things that need to be ironed out. And I have to pull out the problem at it's very root. The ugly six headed blood spouting super-being that is Lies. Lies are the real reason my past few weeks have been going rotten. They're slowly driving all my friends to different continents and they've almost cost me my job. They still might, but I hope not.
It's like in your mind there is an up arrow and a down arrow. The up arrow is scary and looks like you might have to work to keep it up and the down arrow is a lot easier like a chute and will get you there faster. The only problem is it's taking you away from where you wanted to be in the first place.... which was up. And once you've reached rock bottom, it's a helluva hard time working your way all the way to where you were before... let alone going up past it. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it's how I worked it out in my mind.
I lied to my parents and my friends and my employer. But mostly I keep lying to myself, saying that I'm not a liar. Because if you've done it once it's bound to happen again. For everyone I've hurt with my lies, I'm sorry. For real.

PEACE.

Tegan and Sara. YOU ARE ROCK

2008-06-16T00:27:00.000-07:00

This video is from Tegan and Sara. It's a song called 'the con' and it's off the album with the same name. This music is very addicting for me and I've been listening to their album A LOT these past few days. Tell me if you like!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=G6Zlb2ibZ0Y

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 8

2008-06-15T23:09:00.000-07:00

But dreams can sometimes be a mirage
And they don't always go unsabotaged
By those we used to love
Who start to push and shove
Because they're jealous, even of a young man
Whose life had already been beaten
Because of his abnormality, aka the shark hand
Which, who could forget?

The father? Yes, the father of Olivia!
He has now wormed his way into the plot
After the death of his son he'd been stewing away his days
In the basement with a shotgun, his eyes ablaze

[Knocking at the front door]
"God, that boy is back again
Always wanting more
Leading my baby to bed, even though her skin is red
I'll blow off his goddamn head!"
That was his inner monolauge, his plot to rob a life from a young man

He snuck to the attic for a birds eye view
Of the boy who was knocking
"This bullet, my boy, will be the end of you."
But just then, his daughter burst in
With her crimson skin
And correctly in fact stated
"You're no father of mine, and you'll always be hated."

This was an outrage
How dare she put him through this sufferage?
So in his bout of anger
He went and did something terrible
He pushed his daughter
He pushed her
And she fell
Reddened and battered
At the feet of the young man with a shark for a hand....

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 7

2008-06-15T23:02:00.000-07:00

With growing up comes growing apart
Our lives change
And we have a change of heart
But the boy and Olivia
Never ever fell out of love
people lose each other
friends exchange
But the boy and Olivia never had freinds from the start

And if they did, which Olivia did,
At first sight of the boy with a shark for a hand
They all went and hid
So it was
Only each other
Deep in the garden of love

Where the seasons never alter
There's no tricks to fall for
The emotions never falter
Not deep in there in the garden of love

Where no one can find you
The feelings always shine through
Because they are finally true
Deep in the garden of love

Where the boy with the shark for a hand and
His darling Olivia stayed
There in the sof flowerbed they laid
And grew up to the age of eighteen
Their lives a magical dream
That was in no hurry
Because it was deeply buried
Deep in the garden of love

Friday the 13th is my BFF for Reals (Bad Faring Fanfare)

2008-06-14T00:22:00.000-07:00

Whew! I'm lucky I even survived today! This was the first Friday the 13th that I've actually felt really unlucky. It was uncanny how many things didnt go according to plan. 1st I dropped a glass bottle completely full of chocolate milk that shattered all over my floor. 2nd I had to miss seeing my friend because of work. 3rd at work I burnt myself. 4th my cat ran away (she's safe now, but wierdly only after it was midnight.... spooky...). Ermm.... I bet there's more that I'm not thinking of but wutevs. Is it just me or is that pretty unlucky? idk. Then my friend tayler told me she spent the morning in the vets as a dog died. So I'm pretty convinced it's not just superstition. Color me freaked! Outies!

p.s.!!!!: if u have any stories, I'd love to hear em.... I'd just love someone to acknoledge my existence actually................................... sigh....

The Unsung Ballad of the Late Night Fast Food Worker

2008-06-12T21:11:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I work at a certain local fast food restaurant chain and we always get p'wnd by customers especially late at night. The later it is at night, the more demanding the customer is... So I wrote a snooty tune.

it's 2 minutes to close and you insist on getting food
i'm close to leaving so i don't really care if i'm rude
i said "lady, why don't you come back later."
and thought, "god, what a dopehead."
then she said "why not now, you're still open.
so don't you give me any attitude.
i got kids in the backseat
they're crying cuz they wanna eat
now we're really willing to pay
so can we please just have it our way?"
which made me think, "what kids have an appetite
at fricken' 11 o'clock at night?"

customers, ya you! you can be mighty inconvenient
when i just wanna go home and sleep
i got dishes to wash and everythings put in the freezer
and those garbage cans are looking steep
so if you please, get the heck outa here
i don't wanna here drive-thru beep!

you might think i'm pretty selfish, but you try working everyday
for minimum wage
with morons who don't know how to pronounce what they want
and then they get pissed when you make it for them all wrong
try slipping on grease in my shoes
see how well they fit you
as for me i'm gettin pretty sick of it
just til the end of summer i swear, and then i'll quit

i tell the people at drive to politely screw off
and instead they decided to pull up
and to my dismay and utter shock
it turned out that i just ran out of luck
i guess now i don't have to quit
because the people at drive were the boss and her kids

The Cool Kids (you know from that one comercial)

2008-06-11T19:44:00.000-07:00

ok, no lie, I really dig some hip hop. This is really good hip hop.

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 6

2008-06-11T16:08:00.000-07:00

At this point and time, You've probably started to wonder
What happened to the parents of utter blunder
What happened since they left their child in thunder
On the streets with a shark for a hand
They had forgot his name by ten
But they had abandoned him long before then
Crying but alive
Lost in the streets of Chicago
Where was he to go
At the tender age of five?

After leaving him there they moved to Wyoming
To cover themselves in the sweet smelling spring
And forget their son was alive
They used to keep a scrapbook
They barely used that
They'd hardly ever take a look
And eventually left it for scrap
With pictures of their sorry lives
And the young boy before five

The father of the child became a miner
And the mother of the accident couldn't have felt any finer
The saddest part is in pretending that they never had a son
They never did and he wasn't so
So they couldn't let him go
Because he was already gone and went
Nothing but a ghost
And all the money they gave him, he went and spent
On a ticket to the coast
To one day meet his darling Olivia

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 5

2008-06-11T15:58:00.000-07:00

Now not everyone thought this bond practical
Olivia had a brother with a plot
To foil the couple with every chance he got
because he wanted all this foolishness to stop
his sister was fragile and all the while
This dangerous boy was trying to get her hot
"She doesn't need that," he thought
"Because she'd already be burned once
and once was enough"

After months of trying to split them up
Things took a devilish twist
He got the keys to his father's pick up truck
And said, "I'm sorry it has come to this"
Murder is never the answer to choose first
Because it rips things apart and makes them hurt worse
But when someone's trying to run you over
There's not much time to think
The boy with a shark for a hand had one last plan
To sink the truck in the big drink
So he ran to the dock with the truck on his heals
And it chased him right off the dock
wettening the wheels
The machine has sunk like a rock
And the brother never surfaced
Olivia stood horrified on the beach as her true love came out of the sea

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 4

2008-06-11T13:20:00.000-07:00

After falling in love
One must realize sacrifices must be made
And for both of them debts would have to be paid
For Olivia could touch nothing without pain
Felt brisk
And seeing as the boy had a shark for a hand, this was
A terrible risk
But he said poetically and unnervingly realistically:

"I love you but I have a shark for a hand
I can't save you from the swallowing quicksand
Of our lives, and as hard as we try
You'll always be fried, and darling,I'll always have a shark for a hand."

But that didn't stop their love
Which could never be broken
And they grew closer together despite both having
Doubts unspoken

They would stay in her room on days without gloom
And laugh and laugh and play her phonograph
And when she would use it
It played such beautiful music
That they would close their eyes
And not laugh, but grow very serious
Olivia said that the string section was close to her heart
And the boy said it reminded him of the lark
And after that they'd stay quite quiet
And listen to music and immerse themselves in it
It was the most beautiful times of their lives
They were meant to spend this time togoether
Two birds of a feather of a very romantic lark

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 3

2008-06-11T13:04:00.000-07:00

Now comes the most tender moment yet
The time when our two heroes met
It was a moment they would never forget
It was a time that they would never regret
It was in fact quite quaint
Which most would say
That on this day
That it ain't
Because it was dreary, but dreary days for Olivia was the best time to be outside
Where she laint

And if anyone saw her or if anyone spied
On this day she had started and continued to cry
And on this day of drear, who could bring her cheer?
Except for a charming young man
With a muzzle on his hand
And a face devoid of pried

He gave her a rock shaped like a heart
And said "this is what i received from a lark
Who came to me last night in the dark
and said 'give this to the prettiest girl on the beach'"
And since they were on a beach and Olivia was in fact a girl
This was the perfect thing to say
So they both laid on the beach all day
and on that day, promptly fell in love

Paint By Numbers

2008-06-11T12:24:00.000-07:00

k. this song is dedicated to any emo kid who thinks they're a rebel (aka hypocrites)

PAINT BY NUMBERS

I wish I could paint by numbers but I can't stay in the lines
I wish I could be a puppet but I can't be bought and sold
Why would I dress all dark when the world needs a little sun?
I wish I could step through this battlefield without stepping on the mines
I wish I could be like jell-o but I can't stay in the mold
Why do we take ourselves seriously when the world just needs a little fun?

{Chorus}
I'm a story book rebel
I won't play with your play doh
Just because you ask me to
Who's making your decisions?
Shouldn't It be you?

Shout! Because I told you to!
Rebel! Because it's what the cool kids do!
Simon says pick your nose
Trip yourself on the garden hose
The only decision there is is his
So everybody throw yourselves off a bridge

{Chorus}

Well maybe I'm a rebel in my own way
By not being a rebel and following the trend
Wait is that technically a rebel?
If rebelling is what everyones doing, whose rebelling against being a rebel? someone who fits in?
IT'S JUST A FRICKIN' WORD
let's just have a little fun!

{Chorus}

Darn it Fanny Pack!!!!

2008-06-10T21:03:00.001-07:00

Ok, so MTV's coolest show is back (besides Rob and Big) and I was watching It and saw Fanny Pack perform and I hate them! Not really, but they TOTALLY stole my summer style. My friends and I all ordered different colored skinny jeans and I've been wearing the most garishly bright colors lately. Guess what. People are gunna think I stole my style from these guys.http://dance.mtv.com/dance-hip-hop-abdc-finalists,38

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 2

2008-06-10T20:39:00.000-07:00

The family in flight school lived in America
And they took Olivia there because
They felt compassion for such a child
They did not though understand
What happened to her parents
For their corpses were lost in the sand
Lying together with their mouths filled
With sand and their bodies wrapped in one another
Underneath the hill, lying for an eternity still
Fourteen was a tender year
More tender for her I fear
Because poor, sweet Olivia
Still had the sunburn head to toe
And ear to ear
A constant reminder of her parents lost and dear

But her life was good now
She had love from family and friends
And apart from having very sensitive skin
She had as normal a life as one could hope to spend

Unlike the boy with the shark for a hand
Whose life wasn't going as planned
He was fifteen and
His days weren't as grand
And no one could understand
The boy behind the shark hand
That is until he met Olivia with her ruby skin
And the next chapter in his life would begin

Finding Oneself is a Battle Anymore

2008-06-10T14:13:00.000-07:00

Ok. So my last post was at about 5 o'clock. After that I went for a walk down to the railroad tracks by my house. On the way I was lucky enough to see 4 planes fly overhead as they were taking off from the airport about a mile or so away. It was quite a sight to behold. Then I went to the tracks and laid down on them. I saw many birds and an entire flock of geese. This all sounds simple enough, but for me it was really breath taking and quite life changing in fact. Whenever I don't feel like myself, I know that I'll find what was missing at the railroad tracks down the road by my house outdoors in the warm early morning summer air.

"This Is Me Saying Words I Actually Mean"

2008-06-10T03:36:00.000-07:00

The title of this post comes from a song by The Rocket Summer called 'A Song Is Not A Business Plan'. I just listened to that song and like every time I listen to Brice Avary, it made me think. Sincerity is so rare anymore, because everything has been done before and now everyone is just repeating the same worn out ideas. And who wants to take the time to be honest and true anymore when you can just get instant success on youtube? We seem to mess up our lives by over complicating things because we're afraid of being judged for who we are. Ya, I know, a little preachy coming from a 16 year old high schooler working at a fast food restaurant. If you feel like being original but don't know how, a great place to start is by watching the movie Garden State. The first time you might not get it, but for me the second time it really sunk in. Everything we do anymore is to try to get away from our real selves. And once you just stop living for false idols and fantasy ideals, it hits you: I'm alive and I don't have forever to be that way. These feelings seemed to all be intertwined with summer for me, which is a good thing because that's the current season. So if I haven't given you enough recommendations yet, I suggest you read the book Dandelion Wine by Ray Bradbury. It's all about youth and summer and is magic start to finish. No one is reading this anymore. Bubblegum Sandwich! I hope you enjoyed that treat, you deserved it for reading this whole post even though you have a busy life. Thank you for your time. PEACE!

Olivia and Her Love: Chapter 1

2008-06-09T22:26:00.000-07:00

Olivia and her love is an epic poem that I am slowly but surely composing. ya, there's LOTS of chapters to it. but here's the first!

CHAPTER 1

He was born with a shark for a hand
His parents had a name for him, but they forgot it by ten
What a tender age
With the extra baggage
Of an appendage
So unruly and ravage
He joined the scouts as a tenderfoot
But he scared all the boys and bit through all the knots
But he was growing up, and for him all was not lost
Not by a mile

Olivia was born on a hill in the Serengeti
Up there her mother wsa to bear and it was ready
But as she was having the child
Her labors grew wild
And she kicked her husband off of the hill
After which he had a terrible spill
After birth the mother got ill
And soon she grew very still
Leaving the orphaned baby to crawl
Through the rough sun filled Serengeti
and already her skin was reddening
The desert was no dessert and in fact quite deserted she learned
So poor Olivia had no shelter from the sun which sweltered and caused her skin to burn
But a nice family in flight school saw her laying in the sun
And that's how it all begun

With Friends Like These, Who Needs The Death Penalty?

2008-06-09T21:56:00.000-07:00

aighty, so a lot of what i'll post are poems and songs. this is a song i wrote about conflicts with friends. again please comment! and brush your teeth young man!

WITH FRIENDS LIKE THESE, WHO NEEDS THE DEATH PENALTY?

We're a hornets nest of hormones
We keep tearing each other down to the bone
If I didn't cause this, can somebody tell me
why I always end up alone

{Chorus}
Could I get out of this scott free?
God, could you please help me?
I'm sick of being angry
Please Lord, take my plea

This is all just falling around my ankles
Like the glass house we built
Well I'm not the one who threw the stone
But it's still my blood being spilt

{Chorus}

Are we going to make it throught the storm?
Well I hope to God we do
Am I going to be left out in the rain?
We're not all going to make it through
Who's going to keep this boat afloat?
When we keep pulling out the screws
This is an epic falling out
in which we're all going to lose
So who's going to be holding the gun?
Well I hope it isn't you

{Chorus}

{Reprise 1st Verse}

A Welcoming Present for All Who Are Present aka Probably Just Me...

2008-06-09T21:41:00.000-07:00

this blog will be a place where i vent some creativity or thought. i hope you read what i have posted and feel free to comment! enjoy your life too while your at it!